“Whatever relationships you have attracted in your life at this moment, are precisely the ones you need in your life at this moment. There is a hidden meaning behind all events, and this hidden meaning is serving your own evolution.”
—Deepak Chopra (via talisman)
August 2011
gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket, save ‘em for a time when you’re really gonna need ‘em
funny when you're dead how people start listenin'
you are so strong! one thing you have to remember about recovery is that it's long and grueling. it has its ups and downs (mostly downs) but when you get to the end and look back, you'll see how far you've come and it'll make you SO happy. just keep pushing through and making strides every day. recover at your own pace and don't go by the guidelines your doctor sets, it's all up to you.
<3 thanks love! your encouragements help so much.
Your soul is the most beautiful soul I've come into contact with. That made me cry in a good way. The way you word things is so intense, you know so much and give the best advice. I'm going to quote you, btw if that's cool? I'm a school teacher and your entire paragraph was just so beautiful.
oh gosh, sure you can quote me haha. i mean i’m glad what i say gives you inspiration, i guess? i really wish you’d come off anon so we could chat more! you make my ramblings seem worth it :)
I just had to tell you how proud of you I am. The fact that you admit to these fears and weaknesses and stuff you call "bullshit" makes you seem so much more real, so much more attainable. Like I know you which makes me a little happy on the inside because I have followed you for so long and I just I don't know, idolize you? That's a bit intense but you'll understand. You go through things some of us don't and then things some of us do, and it's all so real. You don't hold anything back.
:’) thanks. i mean, isn’t that the point of a personal blog? for people to be themselves? i get people every day who think they have the right to judge me and they quickly find out they in fact do not have that right and nothing will stop me from posting what i deem appropriate (and sometimes not heh) on this blog. sometimes it’s the purest form of how i feel, and this is the only place i can express it. it makes me sad when people put up this false front on here, because in the end we’re all people, you know? we all have demons and angels, we have darkness and light, and we all fuck up. why hide it? why not imortalize it on the internet and have hundreds of other people going through the exact same thing there along the ride with you, giving you support? idk don’t listen to me haha. i’m just glad you enjoy the nonsense i ramble about!
hi hello welcome to my roller-coaster of emotional bullshit
i’ve felt so lonely today, so caught up in the pain i’m going through and the fact that it won’t be gone for a very long time. i start physical therapy tomorrow morning and i’m terrified. i won’t be allowed to go past 45 degrees of felxion for an entire month. then, at 3 months, i might have 90 degrees of flexion, and maybe at 5 months i’ll have full range of motion and be able to begin strengthening my knee at 6 months. i mean yeah, i’m healing very fast. i can already walk around with my brace on minus my crutches for a couple hours and people think i’m a walking miracle. but it hurts. they think that just because i can do that means i’m not in pain. wrong. but unlike many other people in this world, i won’t let the pain stop me. i refuse to let it control me. i don’t know, maybe i wasn’t cut out for this. people who have many more years of life experiences get this surgery and are able to stay calm and just do what the doctor orders. what do i do? i scream, i yell, i kick, i cry, i push myself towards a limit i don’t think exists until i stumble upon it. i get so very frustrated with how weak i feel, at least until Tristan says something like he did today that made it all seem worth it. he told me “you’re not weak, just very very precious” and i felt, in that infinite moment, precious. what i’m going through is precious, and will be precious to me depending on the outcome.
that beautiful moment when saragirl likes/reblogs one of my posts and i squeal <333
that beautiful moment when you think me worthy of such a sentiment
i derive so much pleasure from touching him in the simplest of ways - just touching him. our elbows, the outside of our thighs, our hips, anything. i can’t focus on anything so long as we’re touching.
atallgirlwithastonesconstitution:
life is just so much better when you look hot.
i wish Chucks didn't make my feet look so big... new TOMS it is
i feel so bad when friends notify me that i’ve been neglecting them. yeah, i’ve been busy post-surgery, but that isn’t an excuse. :(
